THIRD

That guy already has a girlfriend now and I'm happy for him. so happy that I forgot how to not cry so easily. lol. I am just too jealous of his girlfriend because it's just so unfair. She got to ask what he's doing, is he okay, have he eaten, how is he feeling. I just can't accept the fact that he is someone else's now. But I did my best not to show any feelings towards their relationship.

And a few days ago, he had a fight with his girlfriend so I just pm him to cheer him up. and then, we started a few conversations and I wasn't in my right mind when he said sorry for whatever he did in the past but I was badly wounded to admit that I'm still hurting. and...... I just said it's okay, it's okay, it's okay when it was obviously not and won't be okay.

So... we are quite

 okay now. and we are friends maybe. lol

A few days ago, I saw her gf ig's story. yeap I followed her using my other ig account because I need to see who's my rival. I saw him walking towards her while smiling.
I was like "Ya Allah why does it feel so painful?". But I've learn to be better and feel more okay with the truth. even if it hurts, I'll have to be okay :) and praying will make me feel more calm.