Hello everyone,
It's already 2018 and I'm trying to be happy but it's hard to do just that. He's back. his heart broken is back. and I'm trying to be there for him. I want him to be happy like he used to be but it will be very hard because he's not okay and he keeps on making things hard for himself. I shouldn't be worried but I'm feeling worried. I know how hard it must be when your love were betrayed. If only you knew how much I love and care for you, I think you'll be very suprise. you thought of me as a good friend but I don't think about you in the same way.
Do you want to know something that's much more pathetic? A lot of things that require me to insert my password, your birthday date are still inside(1/6). I don't know. I just couldn't stop doing it. Things will become more complicated afterwards because we're starting to contact each other every single day using whatsapp. When I'm not there, he'll find me. That's what I'm afraid the most. I'm afraid I might get hurt again. I clearly knew that he will leave me when he found someone else or when he get back or whatever he just won't be with me. That's the fact that I've been trying to swallow. It's bitter but I'll have to go through it the same way I used to. It will be the most painful and hard experience that I've ever went through. I will remember how much I love you always and I'll remember how much I've been missing you these two years :) It was great knowing you. That's the only thing I know about myself, you and her.
I won't forget you Dear A,
my so-called first love :)
Do you want to know something that's much more pathetic? A lot of things that require me to insert my password, your birthday date are still inside(1/6). I don't know. I just couldn't stop doing it. Things will become more complicated afterwards because we're starting to contact each other every single day using whatsapp. When I'm not there, he'll find me. That's what I'm afraid the most. I'm afraid I might get hurt again. I clearly knew that he will leave me when he found someone else or when he get back or whatever he just won't be with me. That's the fact that I've been trying to swallow. It's bitter but I'll have to go through it the same way I used to. It will be the most painful and hard experience that I've ever went through. I will remember how much I love you always and I'll remember how much I've been missing you these two years :) It was great knowing you. That's the only thing I know about myself, you and her.
I won't forget you Dear A,
my so-called first love :)
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